It feels so weird to be almost totally disconnected from the 30stm machine. Being echelon has been central to my identity for the last 4 years.
I think I'm lost
I think I'm lost
2009
:: What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before? Shaved my head, had all pink hair, had all white hair, took my belly piercing out, I actually didn't get a new tattoo ALL YEAR which sucks, and I've been in the longest consecutive relationship ever (meaning we haven't broken up then gotten back together at all, just stayed together).
:: Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make a resolution last year because I don't even remember last NYE. My resolution for 2010 is to get over my fear of driving and start driving like a normal person again. Like befor eI got in that car accident that should have killed me in 2003.
:: Did anyone close to you give birth? Yup, my cousin, who is like my brother, had my "niece", Anauleise Autumn.
:: Did anyone close to you die? My Grandpa died on my birthday:( My Aunt Vangie died, my Aunt Lily died. Michael Jackson, which was devastating to me:(
:: What countries did you visit? None, but I'm going back to Japan in May!
:: What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? Less being sick, more traveling. More tattoos. More making music.
:: What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? So many. The 30STM Summit, when my boyfriend and I got together, our first date, our 6 month anniversary,the late June LA visit, my birthday, my boyfriend's birthday party, the zombie fashion show, the No Doubt concert, my trip to Denver 2 weeks ago and the 30STM concert there,filming the zombie movie in Dulce, NM. I'm forgetting some, I know.
:: What was your biggest achievement of the year? My relationship with Wayne<3
:: What was your biggest failure? Drinking too much.
:: Did you suffer illness or injury? HA. Pretty much every other week.
:: What was the best thing you bought?? Any plane tickets, and even though Wayne's paying for it as an Xmas present, I'm getting my septum re-pierced after Xmas.
:: Whose behavior merited celebration? Wayne, Toby, Anna, my brother and Mom of course, Ian, Teri, Nikki, all my buddies at Atomic. And my doggy. And J has been super sweet to me too.
:: Whose behavior was appalling? Ryan, even though he's gotten better recently, Robbie, Wayne's psycho ex who thinks she's still with him even though she lives in another state and has a boyfriend, the majority of the people from Suicide Girls can rot in hell.
:: Where did most of your money go? Doctor visits and medication. Eh.
:: What did you get really, really, really excited about? Being with Wayne, all the 30STM related stuff (especially being on one of their cd covers and the back up vocals), something that's still in the works but I don't know if is ever gonna happen but still hoping, my niece being born on the same day as me and all Gackt's new music.
:: What song will always remind you of 2009? Katy Perry-Waking Up In Vegas, Lady Gaga-Paparazzi and Bad Romance, Pink-Sober and the new 30STM cd. Especially A Call To Arms.
:: Compared to this time last year, are you:
// happier or sadder? Happier.
// thinner or fatter? Thinner. I just lost 7lbs.
// richer or poorer? Poorer, unfortunately.
:: What do you wish you'd done more of? Travel and tattoos.
:: What do you wish you'd done less of? Drinking too much and blacking out. I'm missing a whole lot of nights from my memory.
:: How will you be spending Christmas? With my Mom, brother, my friend Mie, and Wayne<3
:: Did you fall in love in 2009? Yes. I am completely in love with my boyfriend.He's awesome.
:: How many one-night stands? None! I've never had one.
:: What was your favorite TV program?1000 ways to die, Man vs Food, Anthony Bourdain, Ni Hao, Kai-lan, it's on with alexa chung. I love her, she's hilarious.
:: Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No, I hate all the same people, pretty much.
:: What was the best book you read? "Where Is My Mummy?" it was a cute Halloween book I bought at Hastings. It's 10 pages long.
:: What was your greatest musical discovery? Lady Gaga. I didn't like her at first but I fucking love her now.
:: What did you want and get? Wayne.
:: What did you want and not get? Lasik. I'm sick of contacts and glasses!
:: What was your favorite film of this year? Technically it came out last year, but I didn't get to see it til January, but REPO! THE GENETIC OPERA. And The Hangover, Drag Me To Hell and Zombieland.
:: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was sad because my Grandpa died that afternoon, then I went and had a big party with all my friends and got drunk and felt better. And I turned 26, thank you.
:: What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? My dreams to come true. But that's happening next year, so I'm not too worried.
:: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? I'm still a living cartoon.
:: What kept you sane? My medication.
:: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Gackt. Of course. Especially with his hair black and longer. Purr.
:: What political issue stirred you the most? Propostion 8. Ugh.
:: Who did you miss? All my Japanese friends who were SUPPOSED to tour this year in the Us but didn't.
:: Who was the best new person you met? Ian and Teri, Wayne's best friend and his girlfriend. Teri is one of my best friends now and so is Ian.
:: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: That even though this hasn't been the best year of my life, good things can still happen.
2010
1. Will you be looking for a new job? I need a temp job to make $ for Japan in May, but it has to be flexible cuz of my modeling and travel schedule.
2. Will you be looking for a relationship? I like the one I'm in.
3. Will you be looking for sex? My boy and I have way too much sex as it is. And I like it that way.
4. What will you do different in '10? Be more famous.
5. New Year's Resolution? To drive like a normal person without having overwhelming anxiety.
6. What will you not be doing in '10? Not be being sick all the fucking time.
7. any trips planned? Japan in May...nothing solid but a lot more I'm sure.
8. Wedding plans? Somehow I doubt that.
9. Major thing on your calendar? Nippon!
10. What can’t you wait for? Japan and Wayne and myself's 1 year anniversary.
11. What would you like to see happen different? My dreams come true.
12. What about yourself will you be changing? Less drinking, more traveling, less sickliness, and more famousness.
13. What happened in ‘09 that you didn’t think would ever happen? My boyfriend.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about? I'm one of the nicest people already.
15. Will you dress differently in '10 than you did in '09? uh...no.
16. Will you start or quit drinking? well, I'm not gonna quit drinking, but I'm gonna slow it down a ton.
17. Will you better your relationship with your family? My family is my mom and brother and we're already perfect.
18. Will you do Volunteer work? I'm a selfish bitch,so I doubt it.
19. Will you be nice to people you don't know? See question 14.
20. Do you expect '10 to be a good year for you? Yes, I have a good feeling.
21. How much did you change from this time last year til now? Not much, just not single now.
22. Do you plan on having a child? HELL NO.
23. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now? Unless they fuck me over, of course.
24. Major lifestyle changes? Being famous.
25. Will you be moving? I wish I could be moving to Japan next year. or back to LA. But no, I don' think so.
26. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 10 that happened in 09? No miscarriages.
27. What are your New Years Eve plans? Partying it up with my fellow Apache members at their cute new place.
28. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight? He has to work at 11:30:( But I'll kiss him at 11 before he leaves.
:: What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before? Shaved my head, had all pink hair, had all white hair, took my belly piercing out, I actually didn't get a new tattoo ALL YEAR which sucks, and I've been in the longest consecutive relationship ever (meaning we haven't broken up then gotten back together at all, just stayed together).
:: Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't make a resolution last year because I don't even remember last NYE. My resolution for 2010 is to get over my fear of driving and start driving like a normal person again. Like befor eI got in that car accident that should have killed me in 2003.
:: Did anyone close to you give birth? Yup, my cousin, who is like my brother, had my "niece", Anauleise Autumn.
:: Did anyone close to you die? My Grandpa died on my birthday:( My Aunt Vangie died, my Aunt Lily died. Michael Jackson, which was devastating to me:(
:: What countries did you visit? None, but I'm going back to Japan in May!
:: What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? Less being sick, more traveling. More tattoos. More making music.
:: What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? So many. The 30STM Summit, when my boyfriend and I got together, our first date, our 6 month anniversary,the late June LA visit, my birthday, my boyfriend's birthday party, the zombie fashion show, the No Doubt concert, my trip to Denver 2 weeks ago and the 30STM concert there,filming the zombie movie in Dulce, NM. I'm forgetting some, I know.
:: What was your biggest achievement of the year? My relationship with Wayne<3
:: What was your biggest failure? Drinking too much.
:: Did you suffer illness or injury? HA. Pretty much every other week.
:: What was the best thing you bought?? Any plane tickets, and even though Wayne's paying for it as an Xmas present, I'm getting my septum re-pierced after Xmas.
:: Whose behavior merited celebration? Wayne, Toby, Anna, my brother and Mom of course, Ian, Teri, Nikki, all my buddies at Atomic. And my doggy. And J has been super sweet to me too.
:: Whose behavior was appalling? Ryan, even though he's gotten better recently, Robbie, Wayne's psycho ex who thinks she's still with him even though she lives in another state and has a boyfriend, the majority of the people from Suicide Girls can rot in hell.
:: Where did most of your money go? Doctor visits and medication. Eh.
:: What did you get really, really, really excited about? Being with Wayne, all the 30STM related stuff (especially being on one of their cd covers and the back up vocals), something that's still in the works but I don't know if is ever gonna happen but still hoping, my niece being born on the same day as me and all Gackt's new music.
:: What song will always remind you of 2009? Katy Perry-Waking Up In Vegas, Lady Gaga-Paparazzi and Bad Romance, Pink-Sober and the new 30STM cd. Especially A Call To Arms.
:: Compared to this time last year, are you:
// happier or sadder? Happier.
// thinner or fatter? Thinner. I just lost 7lbs.
// richer or poorer? Poorer, unfortunately.
:: What do you wish you'd done more of? Travel and tattoos.
:: What do you wish you'd done less of? Drinking too much and blacking out. I'm missing a whole lot of nights from my memory.
:: How will you be spending Christmas? With my Mom, brother, my friend Mie, and Wayne<3
:: Did you fall in love in 2009? Yes. I am completely in love with my boyfriend.He's awesome.
:: How many one-night stands? None! I've never had one.
:: What was your favorite TV program?1000 ways to die, Man vs Food, Anthony Bourdain, Ni Hao, Kai-lan, it's on with alexa chung. I love her, she's hilarious.
:: Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No, I hate all the same people, pretty much.
:: What was the best book you read? "Where Is My Mummy?" it was a cute Halloween book I bought at Hastings. It's 10 pages long.
:: What was your greatest musical discovery? Lady Gaga. I didn't like her at first but I fucking love her now.
:: What did you want and get? Wayne.
:: What did you want and not get? Lasik. I'm sick of contacts and glasses!
:: What was your favorite film of this year? Technically it came out last year, but I didn't get to see it til January, but REPO! THE GENETIC OPERA. And The Hangover, Drag Me To Hell and Zombieland.
:: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was sad because my Grandpa died that afternoon, then I went and had a big party with all my friends and got drunk and felt better. And I turned 26, thank you.
:: What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? My dreams to come true. But that's happening next year, so I'm not too worried.
:: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? I'm still a living cartoon.
:: What kept you sane? My medication.
:: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Gackt. Of course. Especially with his hair black and longer. Purr.
:: What political issue stirred you the most? Propostion 8. Ugh.
:: Who did you miss? All my Japanese friends who were SUPPOSED to tour this year in the Us but didn't.
:: Who was the best new person you met? Ian and Teri, Wayne's best friend and his girlfriend. Teri is one of my best friends now and so is Ian.
:: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: That even though this hasn't been the best year of my life, good things can still happen.
2010
1. Will you be looking for a new job? I need a temp job to make $ for Japan in May, but it has to be flexible cuz of my modeling and travel schedule.
2. Will you be looking for a relationship? I like the one I'm in.
3. Will you be looking for sex? My boy and I have way too much sex as it is. And I like it that way.
4. What will you do different in '10? Be more famous.
5. New Year's Resolution? To drive like a normal person without having overwhelming anxiety.
6. What will you not be doing in '10? Not be being sick all the fucking time.
7. any trips planned? Japan in May...nothing solid but a lot more I'm sure.
8. Wedding plans? Somehow I doubt that.
9. Major thing on your calendar? Nippon!
10. What can’t you wait for? Japan and Wayne and myself's 1 year anniversary.
11. What would you like to see happen different? My dreams come true.
12. What about yourself will you be changing? Less drinking, more traveling, less sickliness, and more famousness.
13. What happened in ‘09 that you didn’t think would ever happen? My boyfriend.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about? I'm one of the nicest people already.
15. Will you dress differently in '10 than you did in '09? uh...no.
16. Will you start or quit drinking? well, I'm not gonna quit drinking, but I'm gonna slow it down a ton.
17. Will you better your relationship with your family? My family is my mom and brother and we're already perfect.
18. Will you do Volunteer work? I'm a selfish bitch,so I doubt it.
19. Will you be nice to people you don't know? See question 14.
20. Do you expect '10 to be a good year for you? Yes, I have a good feeling.
21. How much did you change from this time last year til now? Not much, just not single now.
22. Do you plan on having a child? HELL NO.
23. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now? Unless they fuck me over, of course.
24. Major lifestyle changes? Being famous.
25. Will you be moving? I wish I could be moving to Japan next year. or back to LA. But no, I don' think so.
26. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 10 that happened in 09? No miscarriages.
27. What are your New Years Eve plans? Partying it up with my fellow Apache members at their cute new place.
28. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight? He has to work at 11:30:( But I'll kiss him at 11 before he leaves.
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